Hello! Wow it's been a while since I have written huh? So I guess now would be a good time to update everyone on what I have been up to!

It's been a busy month.. They say that April showers bring May flowers and I hope that term is correct in the terms of "tons of work, will lead to a beautiful outcome for the rest of the year!" Because that is what I have been up to! Cacey and I have been working on the house every weekend! Mostly doing yard work.... Cacey and my dad have been putting the kitchen in downstairs and I am happy to say that it has finally paid off! Because we just made the last payments on the cabinets so they can be installed this weekend! Yay! The renters will now have their own kitchen! A few things will need to be done after that.. But for the most part, the ball is rolling!

Yard work... (Sigh)... never ends! And tho I love it so much! (Really I do)... I am ready to enjoy the hard work and have it pay off! We have been cutting branches, pulling weeds, fertilizing the lawn, watering the lawn, trimming the raspberries, tilling the gardens, planting pumpkins and onions, planting other flowers that I bought too soon lol... tearing trees down, ripping vines out.. all while keeping it maintained! I have to say, it looks great! Especially compared to what it looked like before! The owners before Cacey planted a bunch of stuff they didn't know how to up keep, or really where to plant.. So we had trees and weeds growing everywhere! And on top of that.. No one lived in the house for a year before Cacey moved in so the yard was horrendous! .... We are getting a "green dumpster" to put all of our hard work in lol. I am talking at least 17 55 gallon bags of leaves, at least a flat bed trailers worth of tree limbs and a few other odds and end things.

I can't wait to have company over for BBQ's when its all done! It already looks so much better! But I can't wait to get the soil in the beds and the flowers planted! :) It makes me excited to think about!

Rylee turned 10 on the 17th so she had 2 parties. A slumber party with her girlfriends, and a outdoor BBQ with grandparents! It was stressful getting ready for it all.. But it was all worth it because she had a great time!

Other than that.. not much has changed! Except...one of my wishes have somewhat come true! ... I will tell you what that is, but first I will give you a little back ground!

I love peacocks, and ducks, and geese, and pretty much any animal! But for some reason I love peacocks so so much! So I told Cacey I wanted some... He told me NEVER!!! Because they are too loud...Which they are. I know this because a guy a couple blocks away has them and we can hear them at night when they talk to each other. :) But it's been funny because I imitate them all the time.. so now the girls do too! LOL.... Anyways... So this one peacock wanders around the neighborhood in the summer time. (I would assume not far from his house)... He used to have a mate, but she got ran over :( Sad I know... And since they only have one mate for life... He is now a lone ranger... Anyways.. I keep getting side tracked... So Cacey told me I will never have a peacock.. So we were driving down the street in our neighborhood and I saw a pair of ducks just waddlin along.... Immediately I looked at Cacey and say "OOOHHHHHHH BABE!!!!! I want ducks!!!! CAN WE GET SOME DUCKS!!! I LOVVVE THEMMMM!!!!!" his reply "Tank would LOVVVE them too!!! Tank would love them as a food baby in his Belly!!!" .... I said "He would love to play with them!" Cacey says "He would love to play with them in his belly!" ... I took this conversation as a no and left it alone.......

BUT!!!!!!!!! .......... On Monday morning I got up, walked out the door to go to work and GUESS WHAT?!!!! THE DUCKS WERE IN MY YARD!!!! YAY!!!!!! I was sooo happy! I took a picture and text Cacey immediately and told him the good news. He didn't get nearly as excited as I did.. Or still do when I talk about it lol.... AND GUESS WHAT ELSE?!!! THEY WERE BACK AGAIN TODAY! WAHOO! I'll take every other day! :) I was so happy, I fed them a hamburger bun! ... Maybe it will keep them coming back for more ;) Cross your fingers... and cross your fingers that one day I will have a set of peacocks! xxxxxxx

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Enjoy the day everyone and remember that life is most beautiful when seen through eyes of love! Spread the love and continue to smile! Times may be hard, and money may be tight, but no matter how poor we may be... We can always be rich in love! <3

Doggy Heaven/Hell

Hello everyone! I just thought I would take a few minutes and blog for a minute! This past week has been crazy! Cacey's dad turned 61 yesterday! So we went over there for a little get together! It was a lot of fun! Great food and wonderful family! His dad looks amazing for 61! And I am pretty sure he is in better shape than most 30 yr old!

LOL Other than that we have been working on the house.. Trying to get it organized for the girls to come back and visiting with families! We are also dog sitting Tiva while Dallas is in California for the week... Needless to say it has been a week full of sleepless nights and frustrating battles of getting them to listen! Tiva has definitely picked up some bad habits while living with Cacey's other brother! I hold his dogs fully responsible LOL. But she and Tank love each other! And they have so much fun together! We call her "Tanks girlfriend" :) . He will even save his food for her sometimes. Oh and she has decided that his Kennel is hers now. She sleeps in it all the time if the door is open. It is the weirdest thing! I am posting a picture to show you! Sorry so dark.. She kind of blends in with his blankets!



Also, Tank is now the proud owner of his own skateboard! :) The girl that used to own him said that he loved it... And we had just kept forgetting about it. But we went to Walmart the other day and finally got him one! He went nuts when he saw it! he LOVES it! he will literally bite your hand if you take it away from him! He doesn't really go straight on it yet.. but he can do some mean circles! LOL It's so cute!

I didn't have very much camera time left.. That is why it is so short! We love him though! And he becomes more fun every single day! :) Life it good people!




I hope everyone enjoys their weekend! I will! My childhood friend Sara is flying in tomorrow with a friend! It was just planned today as a matter of face! I will pick them up at the airport in the morning! I can't wait to see her! It's been too long!

Adios muchachas!

New in my world? Well lots actually! Life has been crazy busy for the past little while but I am loving it! Things are still going well with Cacey and me. So well that we have decided that I am going to move in there... Which really is not any different than it is right now, seeing that I have basically lived there since October... But we both feel it's a good idea. Mainly because marriage is such a big step. And I want to make sure that things will work out in the long run before I take that step. Things are allot different when you date someone with kids.... Dating Cacey is a completely new experience. I have never dating anyone like him. And I love him and I love his girls.. but if things were to go sour between us, I wouldn't be walking away from just him. I would walk away from his girls too! And I have faith in our relationship, but then again the only thing that is predictable in life is death itself! So we shall see ! I am really excited about it and so are the girls! Me and Cacey talked to the girls about it to make sure they would be ok with it....Rylee told me that the house is definitely going to be allot prettier now lol.. and Ariah just said.. So you are going to live here? Like full time??? LOL so I guess it's great to have both of their approvals! :)

Other than that we are just working on the house... I have been meaning to post pictures and I wish I would have taken before pictures but I didn't.. I know.. Shocking! But I will have to update with the progress thus far! We got the front yard looking really good! We ripped some trees down that were next to the front door! You would have never known there was a house behind them! lol. They were big ugly pine trees of some sort.. and then we have raked the yard and I have been planting flowers and what not! I love it! It's rewarding to see the hard work that you put into things!

In the back yard there are like a million leaves to rake up.. We have already raked up like 11 of the 55 gallon drum bags FULL of them! it is rediculous! And we still have half a yard left! cacey bought the house 2 years ago and the people there before him never did yard work! So the yard is in pretty bad shape! And last year he really only tackled the "needed" areas that were used allot! Which is completely understandable! It's been a looooong couple of weeks out side, but I am loving it!

Inside, the basement kitchen is almost finished! They are ready to sheet rock so that will be nice once that is done! Everything else is about lined up after that! But things have been going wrong or setting the time back so it's been a struggle there too! Some times it feels like nothing is getting done! But I know it has! And everything will happen and come together in time!

Me and Cacey at the Hockey Game


Ariah and KoKo at Chuck-E-Cheese


Jaxon and Tank playin.. Jaxon loves him! And Tank is really good with him.. Even though he is clumsy sometimes!



So that pretty much catches everyone up to speed! Life is good, love is great, and I am happy! :) I hope all is well with everyone and you have a beautiful day!

bottled up tears

Today I want to cry.. and I want this feeling to go away... The feeling where your heart feels like it's skipping offbeat and your stomach is trying to escape through your upper abdomen.... I want it to go away and the only way I know how to do that is to cry.. But what do you do when you feel like you can't cry to the one who you need at the moment?

I cry alone... I don't let people see me cry if I can help it... Well about the things that truly upset me and affect me....

I feel alone.... I really wish Chelsea were here because I know that seeing her and talking with her would make me feel a little better. Sometimes I really do feel like she is the only person that gets me entirely... The only person that understands what I am saying without being offended. And sometimes I feel like she is the only one I can express myself to completely. Sometimes I feel like she knows how I am feeling better than I do.

I feel disappointed in the face that I am upset and the reasononing behind it is misunderstood.... and I feel alone... 2 feelings that don't mix well together.....

Tomorrow will be a better day... Lets hope.

Oh how the Spring fever has filled my veins! aahhhh :) I love it!

Yes people I am ectatic that it is warming up! Spring and Summer make me glow! I love the feeling of the sun on my face! And I love being able to wear shorts and a tank top outside!

So in honor of the weather warming up, I am going to list 10 things that I love about Spring time!

1.Sundresses!


2. Rain


3. Seeing life emerge from the gardens


4. Yard work


5. Birds chirping in the trees before the sun comes up.


6. Flip flops and high heels




7. Spring colors


8. flowers in full bloom


9. Going for walks


10. picnics

A Dane Cookie Moment.

Usually I don't get bothered by what people say to me on the phone while at work... Most of the time I find it quite amusing when they lash out at me or get upset over things I have no control over... But today for some reason this woman just rubbed me the wrong way.... It reminded me allot of skit where Dane Cook talks about ordering a club sandwich from a restaurant and getting cut off by the waitress in mid sentence.

So I have taken the time to post the link below. Watch if you like, but I do warn you the footage is not great and it does have fowl language...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndwHeU75zhQ

So here is my "Dane Cook" moment.....

" Good Afternoon Forestry Fire and State Lands, this is Nicole how can I help you?"..... " Yes this is ____ From _________ and I am trying to send you guys a check but I need to make sure I have the correct address..... There is a long pause. So I immediately begin to say "Ok it's ______ West _____ _____ Suite ____ " and get RUDELY INTERRUPTED by her saying "Why don't you just tell me if I DON'T have the right address!!!!" And then she proceeded to repeat the exact same address that I just said to her ...

Like Dane was... I was completely taken back... I was actually quite pissed. I didn't know what to say... I felt like my thought process had been ripped out of my head. I wanted to yell at her. And say "Excuse me BEAST... if you would have quit being such a hag and opened your ears and wouldn't have RUDELY INTERRUPTED ME.....You would have noticed that I stated the EXACT same address as you... BEFORRRRE you even opened your mouth!!!! Open your ears and not your mouth!"



But during these hard times and economic struggle.. I refrained and decided that having my job was more important that getting my ego back.....

Maybe it was just the way she said it.. It was so rude and it made me not like her. LOL .. Now if I ever meet her I am going to judge her base on our first encounter which I hate doing. But ya know, I believe in first impressions and I strongly believe in treating people (especially in a work environment) with total respect. Because that is how I want to be treated... She totally threw that out the door. maybe she had a bad day.. Or maybe she just has bad communications skills... Either way I hope she doesn't talk like that to everyone she is in contact with!


Thanks for letting me vent... Hope you all enjoy your day! :)

My mamma!

I can't believe how quickly time has flown by... I am almost 22 and my mom will be 48 in 2 days! Can you believe it?! Any ways... in your honor, once again I will be making a list of things that I love about you.... There are 22 because your baby will be 22 this year :)


1. That I get my emotional nature from you.

2. Watching the Hills together :)

3. Latching onto your leg as you'd get ready in the morning.

4. When you would wake up extremely early in the morning to go to work so you could make sure you picked me up from daycare around 2-3... I don't remember what times they were... But I remember sitting next to the fence with the watch on my wrist and knowing what time you should be there by because you showed me. And I know you worried on the days you were late because you knew I was panicking.

5. When Amber and I would get in really bad fights that you couldn't handle and you would leave for a while... But you would always come back with a treat for us.

6. When I broke up with Zack and had a nervous break down in your arms. I felt closer to you after that day.

7. Going to movies with you Jill and all the kids. I always loved those nights.

8. When you ask what we want for dinner when it's only 7:00 in the morning :)

9. How big of an animal lover you are.

10. Watching Lifetime together on Sunday mornings.

11. How much you love dad.

12. That I have green eyes like you.

13. That you were always there for us no matter how mean we were to you.

14. How much you love Jaxon.. It almost spills out of you when he is around.

15. Your laugh when you think something is really funny.

16. Your German Chocolate cake.

17. How good you are to Cacey and his girls. And how fast you got over the age difference because you could see I was truly happy.... It feels nice to have a boyfriend that you guys actually like. And it makes me excited to have them as a part of our family.

18. You let me be myself and love me unconditionally.

19. You always put others first.

20. That you treat the dogs like humans.

21. That the Dr. told you not to have another baby after Amber because there was a good chance something would go wrong but you had me anyways.

22. How important our family is to you.


Mom you truly are the greatest mom there is. And if I were to name off all the reasons why I say that, my list would be endless. You have been one of my biggest support systems in life.. And even in the times that I was angry at the world.. You were there for me. I feel so blessed to have such a positive role model to look up to. You has so many wonderful traits that I hope to take on when I have kids. Because if I could even be half the mom you are, I know my kids will turn out to be great. Anyone that knows you will tell you that you have one of the biggest hearts. I have seen prime examples of that all throughout my life.... Even when our family was struggling, you were always trying to figure out what could be done to help others. The fact that you are always putting others before dad and yourself is just one of the many things I love about you. You are one of the most unselfish people I know. You are constantly making sure Amber and I are happy and ok in life... You are the glue that holds our family together. And I know it doesn't always show but I am so glad you are my mom.. It feels good to have a mother that cares about our families well being as much as you do.

Thank you for always being here for me. Thank you for guiding me though life but allowing me to make my own choices. I know that I have strayed onto my own path and done things that you don't agree with... But I know I am a good person. And I know that best qualities in me are those I have gained from you and dad. I am happy with who I am. And I happy happy knowing that I have the best parents anyone could ask for.

I love you mamma! Happy Birthday!

Love always,
Colie-